Adoption, Autoimmunity, Honesty

I love my life and every single lesson that I’ve learned along the way. I’m grateful. Yet, as an international adoptee, I cannot say that I haven’t experienced moments when I’ve mourned the very fact that I’m adopted. Truth is, sometimes adoption hurts deep. No matter the life chapter an adoptee may be in, the hurt is real. It’s important to express that hurt, to let it out.

This can be difficult when so much about adoption is wrapped in joyful ribbons and bows. I understand this joy, as I honor the beauty of adoption each and every day. In so many ways, adoption has been a great blessing in my life. Yet, as an adoptee and adoptive parent I would be remiss if I dismissed the voices within my adoption community that express feelings of being left, abandoned, erased. I would be remiss if I dismissed the voice within myself, as well.

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A Birth Family Reunion At A Funeral, by Robyn Cisar

I was back at school for about a month when I got a phone call. It was my birth mother. Her mother lost her battle with breast cancer. I immediately felt a sting of regret because I never had the opportunity to meet her. I met my immediate birth family just one month before, but somehow I was too late to meet my maternal grandmother. My birth mom asked if I’d come down for her funeral. “Of course,” I told her. I didn’t want to miss another chance to learn something about her family.

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Blank Canvas: intimidation or inspiration?

The beginning is the most important part of the work. ~Plato

Could there be anything more daunting than staring at a blank canvas, or a blank computer screen? It’s always the first stroke, or the first word that seems so difficult to release.

At the same time, could there be anything more exciting than contemplating the potential that a blank canvas holds? The moment when you anticipate all the possibilities about to unfold. Indeed, as Paul Cezanne once put it, “It’s so fine and yet so terrible to stand in front of a blank canvas.”

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Don’t Love in a Hurry: thoughts on slowing down and hearing God

If you could have your perfect day, what would it look like? Would your day be filled with the rush of business matters, making phone calls, or ticking away at that to-do list? Would you disappear from sight and take to binging on social media?

What would you do?

I pose this question to myself, as well, as we welcome in the month of June. Summer is upon us; kids are getting out of school and I sense the excitement of an expansion in time. The days are longer, and I even get a break from filling school lunch boxes in the early morning hours! This, alone, fills me with an anticipation equivalent to that of flying off to some tropical island! There’s just something about the summer months and the marvelous thought of slowing down.

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Embracing God’s Redirections

MMB_Blog_56_Michelle en ChileI was planning to write to you from Africa this week, only, God had other plans. It’s a long story, really, so I’ll try and break it down into one, simple paragraph. Here goes!

I was booked on a flight to Johannesburg, South Africa, leaving on Thursday, March 23rd. While connecting through Atlanta, all of that changed. On two consecutive nights, my flights were bumped. To make matters more interesting, the airline could not get my family on another Johannesburg bound flight until the next Monday or Tuesday,  which put us some five days behind on an already tight Spring Break schedule. How could we keep this holiday moving forward?

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My Motherhood, by Tyler Koch

View More: journey to motherhood started with brokenness, heartache and grief. It has become a story of redemption, love and joy.

I always assumed motherhood would come quickly & easily for me. I dreamed about seeing those two pink lines on a pregnancy test, watching my belly grow month after month, rushing to the hospital in the middle of the night and—after many long hours of labor—resting with my newborn baby snuggled to my chest. As it turned out, my journey to the life-changing experience of motherhood ended up looking a whole lot different.

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Soul Swell: shine your light on God and illuminate your holidays

MMB_Blog_49_woman sky My soul magnifies the Lord. ~Luke 1:46b

How do you feel about the holidays? For many people, their feelings can offer up a mixed bag of emotions.

On one end, there is excitement and anticipation everywhere—then turn around—and stress and anxiety can appear out of nowhere.

For many people, the holiday season is the most difficult time on the calendar. Perhaps, they don’t feel special, loved, included, or valued. Perhaps, they feel forgotten — as if they are mysteries in the eyes of the world — and this time of year serves as a reminder of their deepest pain.

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The Power of Forgiveness, by Heather Lei

forgiveness_image1A truly compassionate attitude toward others does not change even if they behave negatively or hurt you.”  ~Dalai Lama

When someone hurts you, feelings of anger and resentment may begin to surface. These feelings can become life consuming, and sometimes, they make forgiveness seem impossible. You might think that a particular person doesn’t deserve your forgiveness—or you may believe yourself incapable of providing it. However, forgiveness isn’t something you do for the person who wronged you; it’s something you do for yourself And it can be difficult—so difficult that forgiving someone who has brought you deep pain, can be one of the hardest things in your life to do.

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Are You Suffering Through Life? 3 ways to reduce suffering and regain joy

MMB_Blog_4-_water&womanOkay, I admit it. The daily news cycle is getting me down. So much negativity, ill-will, and accusation in our political process. Hateful rhetoric and false facts  consume the headlines. There are days when I feel drained. How about you?

I should clarify that I’m not a huge television consumer (this from a one-time television news journalist) and as of recently, I’m hesitant to turn on the TV at all. It’s not, however, just the television that’s a culprit. The internet, social media — you name it — all have a part to play in what I term as, social suffering.

Folks, we’re suffering together — no matter what side of the political or social fence you stand on. As a country, we’re showing signs of depletion, and our kids — the future generation of this nation — have a front row seat to the show. As a mother, I refuse to be pulled in to these rough waters and dragged under, emotionally and spiritually. I refuse to let my kids be pulled under, as well. I refuse to suffer.

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Real Rest: get away with God and recover your life

MMB_Blog_39_walk“Walk with me and work with me — watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly” ~Matthew 11:28-30

What do the words, living freely and lightly mean to you? It’s a question that I’ve been posing lately to myself. Certainly, the world has not felt free and light in recent months. In fact, if you watch the news it seems that our world is becoming more dark and less open, by the second. There is a sense of great uncertainty and human life seems to be a cheap commodity. How did we get to this place?

Just last week, I spent several days in Iceland, a country where I had never been before, but had always wanted to go. It was a life list item for me. Some refer to this as a bucket list. I say life list because I want to focus on realizing my dreams while I live, not on doing them before I die. It’s a small shift in language and a personal preference of mine.

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